I know you are nervous right now and I know you are sad, sat on that little bathroom in your brand-new university halls, crying silently so your new dazzling flatmates can’t hear. It’s okay to cry; I know for a fact that everyone else is in their room crying and missing home. One day you will be sat in the living room in the house you share with them all laughing about this moment. It will pass, sweetheart, I promise.
The world is so bright right now and I want more than anything for you to cling to it, to remember this moment always. This moment is the start of the rest of your life. You don’t have to be just Bethany from Solva, in this moment you can be whoever you want to be and do whatever you want to do. You will wear inappropriate shoes to seminars, and you will always overdress for the occasion, and you own a dirty, little pair of daps (no matter how many pairs mum will throw out). Never let anyone tell you what you can or can’t wear and if someone ever tells you it looks like shit, wear it anyway.
Always listen to Mama, she is never wrong and will be one of the only people in life who will tell you the truth whether you want to hear it or not. You’ll fight with your brother, a lot, but forgive quickly and truly; siblings are a blessing in life, they are made up of everything that makes you and one day they might be the only family you have by your side. Lenny will remain Lenny no matter how much you both age, but you’ll soon realise that no man in life will compare to him and no one will love you as unconditionally as he does.
You will love deeply and truly and romantically and they will be as wonderful as you are dreaming about right now; they will come in all shapes and sizes, and each one will leave you with a lesson learnt. Some of them will leave you soaring and some of them will leave you with a broken heart, and one day you will be heartbroken. No amount of advice I can give you can prevent it because when you love, you give everything, and often you will give everything to the wrong people. There will be days you won’t want to get out of bed and face the world because everything hurts, but it will pass. Do not let their inability to love tarnish your evergreen heart because that is what makes you beautiful; your unbreakable belief in true love. Heed my warning beautiful girl; not everything that glitters is gold, not every gentleman wears a uniform, and always trust that gut instinct of yours, it still hasn’t proven you wrong.
You will find someone to kiss you slowly, dance with you wildly, and set off sparks with a sea salt smile…
Don’t ever settle… in life, love, or dreams.
Set the world on fire, Bethany; do everything in your power to achieve that life you can see right in front of you. It might seem impossible right now but you will get your 2.1 and you will get to Exeter, and you will do study your Masters. Even now you are surrounded by the cynics and the haters, but remember that they don’t know jack shit about you. Let the dumb blonde jokes roll, because one day soon they will be taking your messages while you get your hair done.
You are going to dye your hair several times and make some terrible mistakes with eyebrows, and with boys, and with friends, and you will never get braces, you will always be poor, and you will never not be a mess; but life is a mess and sometimes you have to roll with the punches. Never run from an adventure, embrace the unknown and remember it is never too late to change and you will change so much from this scared, sad, innocent girl sat on the bathroom floor. It is going to be just wonderful.
Good luck, you beautiful mess